A Major Decision
“Then Christ will make his home in your hearts as you trust in him. Your roots will grow down into God’s love and keep you strong. And may you have the power to understand, as all God’s people should, how long, how wide, how high and how deep his love is. May you experience the love that Christ, though it is too great to understand fully. Then you may be made complete with all the fullness of life and power that comes from God” Ephesians 3:17-19. This Bible verse has been an inspiration to my life and has made me understand God’s love facing the challenges that come my way.
I remember when I turned sixteen. The world did not make sense to me and I felt lonely and terrified, like I did not fit. As a teenager, everybody made me believe that the insecurities I felt were normal at this age. I now look back and see that this was a point in my life where God was calling me. He would have saved me from going through all that I was going through but I did not run to him. I ran away from him most of the time getting myself deeper into trouble and further away from him.
As a teenager, I became very rebellious especially at school. I was breaking the simplest of rules like keeping time without even thinking of the consequences. My mouth was very fast to talk ill and criticize others just because I felt that I was cool and more superior to my peers. I knew that deep inside, I was dealing with my insecurities and I needed to run to a place where I would find refuge. I was disobedient to God, my parents, my teachers and my peers.
At my school, we had a Christian Union that was in charge of organizing prayers for the students at least one weekend during the school term. This was the time we were given to worship God and most people would accept Jesus Christ in their lives. A friend told me about and asked me to attend. She preached to me and told me that I could find the peace that I desired in Jesus Christ. I did not think it was possible for God to accept me and I thought that I was not worth to stand before his presence. “My relationship with God is just too far gone” I complained. She was quick to remind me of the parable of the prodigal son who was welcomed by his father even when he had asked his father to give him a share of his property.
During that weekend, I knew I had to make a major decision to have my spiritual birth now that I had nothing to loose. I can confess to you that God is love and he is able to love us no matter what we have done. Sometimes I find myself daydreaming and letting my thoughts wonder. I think about how I have learnt to trust and have faith in God who I have never laid my eyes on. Skeptics may dispute the power of the scripture or deny the reality of God, but no one can deny my experience with him. When I talk about how God has performed a miracle in my life, or the way he has blessed me, changed me, lifted and always encouraged me, perhaps even wrecked and healed me nobody can argue or debate it. God has been my refuge to whom I turn to when things cannot be clarified. I glorify his name when I am happy and seek his comfort when I am weak. This was a major decision that I made in my life.